Family Relations

Families have interesting internal structures. In my family my mother controls the family, even though my father does more work for the family. For me I am more drawn to my mother because of this controlling factor, I'm not really sure why but if there is something bad that happened I am more inclined to talk to my mother about it... Maybe Freud was right that sons are closer to their mothers. What adds to my confusion as to why I am more inclined to talk to my mother is that my father and I have similar traits and enjoy similar things. We are both sailors, accomplished in the midwest. We like similar music and we are both interested in fixing things before we throw them away and buy another or go without something. But even through our similarities we are not especially close, I dont go to him for problems, but then again I dont go to my mother for problems either. That is just who I have grown up to be, I'd rather be independent and solve my own issues that tell my parents. So for me this idea of  parent and child relationships is quite difficult. I wouldn't consider myself to have a normal relationship with either.

What do I know?

How do I know what I know? That is a very good question, I want to think that what I have learned is true, and that things I hear are also true. But do I actually know that everything around me, everything said to me, everything I read is true? No, of course not. And being disappointed by something that I believed to be true but really wasn't is one of the worst feelings you can have. Being sure of something and then it ends up being false and you ideals and hope are crushed. But that situation is only in the most personal sense. If I found out that 1+1=3, to be honest I wouldn't care aside from the fact that all of my math classes since 1st grade have been based of 1+1=2.. So in reality we can only hope that what we know is true. For some things it'll never be clear cut as to right or wrong, truth or lie, black or white.